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what the doctor never said...

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Desperate? Nah...

01 June 2008 || 3:18 PM

I keep on telling myself that I don't have plans of having someone to be my boyfriend. That it is just a waste of time and money. I'd rather think of my studies, right? And I'd rather buy the things I want than to use my money to buy him gifts. Having a special someone will also just add up in my daily responsibilities. Hey, I don't want additional responsibilities!

But why do I experience this feeling - a feeling of wanting a company of someone who will always be there for me. Someone who will always be ready to listen to my not-so-problematic problems and silly jokes. Someone who can erase all my worries just by smiling at me, and listening to me. Someone who can make me feel special and beautiful, even though I'm really not. Someone who could accept the real me - not wanting me to change to what he wants.

Every night, I ask God why do I feel like this. Am I really desperate? No, I'm not desperate! I know God knows that I just want someone to lean on. I wanna be loved.. [aww] I know you think that I got lots of friends, but some friends are not always there for me. They also have their own responsibilities and worries,and I don't want to add mine to theirs. Just like my sister, she's my best friend. But I know I can't tell her all of my worries, because she also has her own worries. And to tell you, she has a boyfriend.

so now, this is what I always tell to myself just to make me feel better: You are still young. Just wait for him to come. Don't hurry yourself. It's the best thing you can do. God is always here, so don't worry if you feel alone. My family and friends are also so near, so you shouldn't feel deserted! You're special in different angles to different people, you shouldn't feel unwanted. And always keep this in mind, somebody loves you, so don't ever feel nobody loves you.

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~'prescribed by KaMiRu'~